October 24, 2021

I am a bit behind on posting so I will get us all caught up for the missing days.  I am writing this on Sunday 10/24 so I can get everyone caught up on the journey.

Thursday – My day today consisted of heading back to the hospital to get my port site looked at because the doctors at MDA and my Oncologist thought it didn’t look closed like it should be and wanted the surgeon to check it out.  The good news is – this turned out to be nothing serious.  The surgeon felt it was closed fine, but went ahead and removed the glue, closed it cleaner, and then glued it back shut.  Praise to God that I did not have to back for sutures or something more – an infection.

Then my afternoon consisted of MRI on my sternum, which was a bit radioactive in the bone scan – again the doctor thinks there is nothing there but wants to be extra cautious.  Gratitude for my oncology being so thorough!  

This visit was the one through all of this that almost made me lose my shit – and that’s saying a lot considering what I’m going through.  First, the hospital was running 30-45 minutes late for my 2 pm appt and I had a 3 pm appt at my Oncologist’s office for my 3 pm Chemo Clinic class.  Then when I finally get started the test required the MRI to be done with contrast so they had to put an IV in to push the contrast.  There were two nurses, one setting up the MRI machine and the other one getting my IV in to get started.  That was easier said than done – and I have great veins.  So the first nurse blew out my right vein and then my left vein, then here comes the other nurse to try again.  She got the IV in down my arm but she was NOT gentle about doing it at all.

I then got to lay on my stomach for about an hour’s worth of images on a newly closed port site, two hurting arms, and an IV.  When it was time for the contrast push – again she was NOT gentle and basically shoved that stuff into me to finish the scan.  

I prayed and prayed for God to be with me.  I meditated and meditated and finally, I just found a small place someplace in my head to go to and made it through it.

Then …..  over an hour late …. Mano and I made it to the chemo clinic appointment.

Chemo clinic was a date with the nurse to find out all the side effects that chemo can have on your body.  Ever read your aspirin bottle’s side effects?  Picture this a million times worse.  How do you handle it you ask?  I just listened,  breathed through it, and prayed to know that God had this – God has me.  

Xo,

Tracy